Monday, April 25, 2005

relatives...

Somehow, sometimes, I find it hard to sustain my blog with more content than just meaningless ramblings....

Anyway I have been a very healthy girl for the past few days! *heh* Ever since thursday, i have been exercising daily.. and i intend to do so at least till friday (haa where my sushi challenge awaits). It feels good to be exercising again after being dormant for the past few months... was gaining so much weight that i scared myself... I think i freaked my weighing machine out also... *rueful smile* Hopefully I can get back into shape with more regular exercise.. and i shall try to watch my diet too (sushi challenge not included.. hahaha)

But then again, diet-wise it may be a bit difficult.. seeing how I'm going back to hk for 2 wks in june.. oh man..!!! *salivates* I can already imagine all the deeeeelicious food!! AND, this time i'm going back to attend my cousin's wedding...

wow time really flies leh. when I came to singapore my cousin was still in his teens, and look at him now! 30 yrs old and starting a family soon! Makes me imagine where all that time went. And sometimes i feel some regret for not being able to grow up with my relatives.. Though blood is thicker than water, i must say that time and distance have both washed thin the ties.. I know some of my friends aren't that close to their cousins either, but at least they watched each other grow up. Unlike me.. I can't recognise most of my cousins. Nor my uncles or aunts. When i go back to visit them my parents will tell me to greet my this-relative-that-relative, which i am quite glad to, but they will seem almost like strangers cuz i haven't met them before in my entire life till now. Isn't that so sad? I see my parents reminiscing about the past with these relatives and i think, where do i fit into all this? And i can't help thinking, do they feel the same way about me? do they find me a stranger too?

But i guess it can't be helped.. and no use dwelling on all these thoughts either. Just learn to cherish wat we have now, all that we hold dear... My grandpa is getting old. While i still have the time and the chance, i shall go back to visit him more often. There's no telling what might happen in the future......

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