Saturday, April 01, 2006
flashbacks of blogging inspiration
weather here in Singapore has been really freakish as of late. sun, heat, intense sun and heat, and WHAM! deluge of rain... and the cycle repeats. I hate both the really hot and really wet weather. so i've been hating it here pretty much these days. what to do? it's not like i can skip off to cooler countries right now (unlike my sis. *pokes tongue*)---------------------------
been feeling a 180 degrees change of heart towards school in recent weeks. beginning of this sem i was really stressed and depressed. kept thinking "i am so loserish cuz my grades suck" thoughts and going demental over all my tests and deadlines and workload in general. sometime in the middle of the sem i decided that i might just be better off not doing hons and switch to double major instead. of course with this new perspective suddenly everything just wasn't quite the same as before. no need to push myself to get cap four-point-O cuz that doesn't make a difference if you're not doing hons.. consequently, i've been feeling this weird kind of heck-care feeling about my upcoming end term tests. and just to inform all those reading, i have 3 tests this week, and 2 projects and another test due next week. hah~ and i haven't really started on any of them but i'm still here blogging and not particularly worked up or panicky over the fact that i'm pretty much screwed. is this a normal consequence of having let go of my expectations, or have i just gone too far too deep into the stress/depression zone until the reverse psychology effect has kicked in? *confused*
i must say that i'm considerably more cheerful these days though. especially compared to how i was 2 months back. that ought to be some cause for celebration in the least..
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some people can be so self-absorbed and irresponsible. Fug them all!!!
For the past 3 sems or so i've been lucky enough to get pretty decent project mates to work with and i've almost forgotten the frustrations of the unhappy group member. damn it, i must have had too much good luck for too long and someone up there decides that i have depleted my well of good luck, henceforth i should take some hardship again. or maybe just bad karma or something.
obviously before i start dooming a person(s) to eternal misery i must justify harbouring such evil thoughts, otherwise i'll hate myself too right. so anyway, a certain bp project was to be done in groups of 5 and i took that module with 6 friends. naturally there're 2 of us extra that has to find another group. so woohoo, me and a friend A kindly offers to form another group elsewhere. both me and A have another friend J from a previous project; J has been okay to work with from past experiences and we didn't really mind when she approached us. then we found another 2 people to join us, K and W -- both of which i hadn't known existed beforehand.
apparently, as it turns out, W is in some MSU pageant (figure out the acronym for yourself) as a finalist and so had a very busy schedule -- meaning it was difficult to set times for the group to meet up. so then we got off to a late start cuz of problems in finding common times to meet. and even then W couldn't make it for some meetings.. but it was still alright cuz she did do her part and uploaded it on time. not too bad.
the previous monday we were supposed to all write up our allocated parts of the report beforehand and then come together at 12 noon to compile and edit cuz the deadline was this wednesday. and note: i stayed up really late into the night just to make sure i did my part, making me really tired the whole day. i'm not the irresponsible one okay. unlike some jerks...
monday morning at around 10.30am, i received an sms from J:
'sorry i have another proj due and a test coming up, i need to study so haven't done my part, can meet another day?'
WHAT?!?
mind you, this is not pair work, it's a group meeting requiring the *very difficult* co-ordination of 5 people's busy schedules and hello all of us are very busy people do you think you are the only one with tests and other projects?? Just because this proj is worth only 20% and not like some other 40% project doesn't mean you can leave it to rot in hell and dump shit work on your group mates. and then i saw her and A come online then we discussed what to do now (and while i was in the middle of another project meeting.. wth i am damn busy too can)
J: you all meet first to compile, then friday we meet again to add in my part
A: i guess we could..
me:
A: ok then shall we set another time now?
me: i've got lessons whole day tues and thurs, so those days are out..
J: ok then wednesday 9pm onwards
me:
A: no...!!!
me: J i think you contact K and W first to see when they're free and to let them know today you can't meet
J: i contact arrh? i very busy leh...
me:
A: (being the nice person that she is) ok i'll msg them and ask them when they're free..
me:
In the end the next meeting was set on friday (yesterday) and we're supposed to meet at 12pm again, with everybody's part written nicely and uploaded onto the ivle community.
Luckily for us, the lecturer extended the project deadline by one week, giving us a bit more time to work on our project.
On wednesday, I msged J to confirm and remind her that we're meeting on Friday.. and J had the cheek to "inform" me that the deadline is extended. machiam like telling me to 'relac ah now we meeting on friday instead also no problem wat'
wat kinda lousy attitude is this. WTF....
Friday at 12pm... (note: it's my free day and i'm coming back to school just for this project meeting)
A: sorry alice.. i will be slightly late, just got onto the bus..
that's fine.. slightly late is ok, i'm quite often slightly late myself too.
12.05pm -- J: sorry i just woke up. will be there asap.
wth?!?
12.15pm -- msg to W and K: where are you guys???
W: i'm at the canteen...
(no reply from K)
So i go to the canteen and i see J in discussion with another group.. that's weird i thought we're supposed to be having project meeting?
W: hey sorry i have another project meeting now you guys go ahead first i will join you all at 1pm
wth?!?!? is there such a thing as one project being more impt than the other or something? i thought if you agreed to meet at a time, out of courtesy or professional ethics or whatever it is, you should keep to your promise to turn up.
(still no response from K)
12.25pm -- A arrives very apologetically
me: oh it's alright, it's just the 2 of us now anyway.
A: huh??
12.30pm -- K: where are you guys? Oh btw i gotta leave around 1pm for another meeting so lets make this quick
wth?!?!?!? you show up late and expect to leave early?
ok, ok.. we start first.. try to download everyone's part from ivle and... tada!! J hadn't even bothered to upload hers. fug it.
1pm -- J and W arrives and K says he's gotta leave
oh that is JUST. GREAT. nobody gives a f***ing damn about the project is it? so why do i bother putting in effort just so that you friggin' slackers can benefit from my sweat and blood (aside from the fact that i would still do whatever it takes to make sure my project doesn't turn out to be some kns submission.. them lucky b*stards)
And not forgetting that the quality of work they brought with them is really really bad. especially being the anal grammar freak that i am, it was really a headache to read all that incoherent crap they were coming up with. all with the exception of A. Heng at least she's in the group too otherwise i think i'll take a auto-firing machine gun and shoot them all down.
anyway i predict sometime next week i'll drive myself crazy editing the whole report all by myself and rewriting most of it.
Posted by liz at 9:34 am
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