Tuesday, April 11, 2006
unconfident me.
feeling quite down now.i wonder if i'll ever make a good presenter. not just in formal project presentations but also the way i present myself to people. sometimes i will feel that i appear very immature and that's totally not the way i would like to portray myself. somehow when i watch home videos and such and i see myself in it, i kind of cringe with embarassment cuz i think i sound and act like a kid. haiz.
did you know that when you talk you can hear yourself speak, but thats not the same as what others hear? cuz when you hear yourself talk your sense of sound will be affected by your brain.. some cognitive thing or something, i can't remember.. so the thing is, i hear myself speak and find it ok, but when you hear yourself on recorded video/audio its completely different.. and i don't like it..
and despite having so much practice at presentations, what with all the projects i've had to present in bizad, i still find it hard to make myself not nervous, and even more difficult to make myself think clearly and speak with confidence during the actual presentation. no matter how much i've practised or prepared beforehand, no matter how composed i may be while waiting for my turn to present, once the floor is passed to me, my brain freezes up and disconnects from my mouth. and this happens all the time. i can't form coherent sentences, i forget my points, my voice and hands are unsteady, etc etc..
and it just makes you feel so sucky esp when everybody else is giving such strong performances and all it does is to make me feel even weaker in comparison to them. what's more i can't help but feel that i've let my group down by not exploiting the full potential of our points cuz i didn't explain them well enough.
Posted by liz at 4:55 pm
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