Thursday, May 25, 2006
this isn't who i'm supposed to be.
Maybe things get to you more easily when you have already been emotionally battered. More irritable. More tender and raw; a little prod to start you crying. Rationality all but flown out the window. War rages inside, unchecked.So you assumed the worst. Big deal. All that preparation couldn't have possibly dammed the deluge that ensued, and indeed it did little to help. Ironically, like the dam, when the water breaks through its power is even greater than if it were allowed to flow freely. More support would have alleviated the situation, but little was received. The flood trickled only after the worst of it was over. A natural process.
Just when you're working hard at rebuilding your dam, now still shaky, you suffer another stab at your foundation. no longer able to hold your fortress, you break down uncontrollably, feeling as though you'll never be able to recover again.
Posted by liz at 10:56 pm
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