Friday, January 12, 2007
lesson 2: down the rabbit hole
I'm trying very hard to learn to be more understanding and tolerant. Things that once used to turn me hopping mad or dreadfully disappointed, I've taught myself to deal with it and just look as if it's no big deal at all. But these lessons don't come without a price. How to put it? Although being more tolerant has made things easier in some aspects, namely interpersonally, internally it causes some conflicts. I've learnt to keep more things and feelings to myself in order to avoid or resolve conflicts, in doing so I find that I'm beginning to lose myself. This may sound kinda weird on some level but my character is such that I like to share stuff with people close to me, both good and bad stuff; now that I have to learn to hold back my tongue.. I can't put my finger to it, it's not entirely bad, but it's not all good either.After a whole lot of not making sense in a bout of self-disagreement, I guess I just feel that it's taking a lot out of me to change who I am, disregarding whether there is a need to change in the first place. Just hoping the road will get easier, and that there will be more understanding whilst I'm still on the way.
Labels: Life lessons
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